Be Forewarned, I am a Fey and Quixotic Creative Writer

Be Forewarned, I am a Fey and Quixotic Creative Writer
And in the End was the Word, Amy's Word

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Friday, August 4, 2017

The Words People Choose--Out to Get, and other such Bull

Frame of reference.  When I was at Elmira Psychiatric center I attended a class.  It is set up like high school in the grand mental hospital.  One nice psychologist went over different terminology to show how language is slanted against the mentally ill.  the word psyche is related to the word soul.  The world of science contrasts with the  faith reality.  When I was with Dr. Margo Fass, she made it clear that just because you are paranoid does not mean that people are not out to get you.  We live in a predatory abusive reality.  I have a very good memory.

I apologize if my memories of abuse don't let you fit me into a little mental illness box in your mind.  That nice Brandlin family with the genetically bipolar daughter, Amy.  The Brandlin's were slightly bohemian and oversexed.   I recall at age eight reading a book, "The Little Red Schoolhouse".  At eight years old, a second grader reading all about sex,that is wrong.  I became preoccupied with sex and refused to do my math workbook.  I put it open, on my head.  Childrens minds do not need to be filled with Playboy magazines what the world is all about manuals.  My parents were not out to get me when they gave that book to me but it was not helpful to my psychology. The culture of abuse does not like to take responsibility for its wounded.  My family regularly took part in "put downs", a term my mother used for language and interaction that tears people down, not validating.   Do I believe that people are out to get me now?  No, people like my commenter on Child of God want to put me in the mentally ill box.  Mental illness is a creation by society to label people who speak out or say things about their lives that others do  not want to hear.  I was in an abusive family.  Like it or not, that was my reality.  Calling the cops because of a letter is also abusive.  I love my daughter, but that was abusive behavior on her part.   Saying that I believe people are out to get me is a way of speaking that tries to put me in the box.  Have I been suspicious, a kinder terminology, yes.  I have a diagnosis and I live on the illness/wellness continuum, like many others.  The source of my illness is family abuse.  PERIOD.  Your words, which do not take responsibility cannot take away my happiness.  I am a happy person despite my troublesome journey.
She has behaviors and is seeking attention--that is mental ill talk.
She is a writer telling her story to a listening audience--that is validating confirming talk.
She was from an abusive family and is a good writer with a good memory writing memoir on her blog...that is a better way to describe Amy Brandlin.

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