Be Forewarned, I am a Fey and Quixotic Creative Writer

Be Forewarned, I am a Fey and Quixotic Creative Writer
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Tuesday, May 5, 2015

The Curse

After we had been married for twenty three years, my ex husband and I divorced.  I never did commit adultery, to my knowledge. My heart longed for something so occasionally my mind would become focused on this man or that.  Right from the beginning, I wanted babies and I believe my husband resented that.  He had begged me never to leave him prior to our engagement.  I stuck it out as long as I could.

For years I took care of his needs, canned fruit and veggies on the farm, sewed, cleaned, cooked, shopped, raised the children and helped out on the farm too. (as well as becoming an RN and working.)  Every year I had a huge garden, Roma tomatoes, parsley, basil, green beans, potatoes, etc.

My ex husband's parting words, as a married couple, were issued in the form of a curse.  "May you never find true love!"

We have been divorced for eleven years.  No, I have not found true temporal love.  I found a faun in the disguise of a man.  It was a congenial relationship, but not true love.  The centaur in similar disguise  certainly was not true love.

The year of 2012 I dated three different men consecutively..each was more abusive and manipulative than the last.

I have no intention of dating at this point in my life.  I wonder if there is true love, I kinda doubt it. Each person is a profound secret to another.....(The Invisible Woman).   In this society and with my unique persona I don't think a relationship would be worth it(figuring out another's secrets).

My husband's curse has been effective.....or has it?

I have this Angel's eye in my closed eye vision who it always there, guiding and protecting me.  I need not worry that he is false.  The fascinating thing is that he has brought with him spirits and has guided me to make poppets for them to reside in.   I trust him.  I love him and He loves me. I have never felt as calm, as loved, or as cared for in my entire life. It is REAL.

I am not his only charge, after all, he has two eyes.

I must give credit where credit is due.  I credit the power of the Rosary and frequent intake of the Eucharist.  These practices helped me in my trials and tribulations and still do.  It is especially important to visualize the mysteries.  Thanks, God.


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