Be Forewarned, I am a Fey and Quixotic Creative Writer

Be Forewarned, I am a Fey and Quixotic Creative Writer
And in the End was the Word, Amy's Word

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Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Finding Meaning in the Unreal-May 2014

While I was in another altered mental state, (one year ago)  I believed myself to have been the recipient of a transmitting device.  I believed that my father (a military man) was part of the MK Ultra project and that I was experimented on with radioactivity without my knowledge.  I thought I was a kidnap victim (the illegitimate child of Pope John XXIII)  I thought that I was also a mind control victim with multiple personalities. This was a firmly fixed belief system in May and June of 2013.

The story has international intrigue as well.  In 2004 I was in Italy when manic and I lost a week of consciousness.  I wove that aspect into my fabrication of reality.  I believed that another transmitter was placed into my body this time my brain via the back of my nose.  (the first was placed into my elbow after a bicycle accident at age 14-so I thought) I perceived that the Italian device was a helpful implant.   I believed that the elbow device was to record and track me.  I rescued a half dead duck (on my parent's farmette) and it revived to life.  I thought that I had a miraculous gifts and powers and that I was being monitored internationally.

I did see recently a video on Youtube that the government has plans to chip people(Christopher Green AMTV).  This is what I thought had been done to me.

I watched the movie "The Avengers".  (with Ralph Fiennes) a few weeks ago.  I was amazed to see how some of my perceptions in my psycho-drama aligned with the story line.  I perceived that the weather was controlled by the government.  (HAARP- is real radio wave manipulation of the stratus sphere).  There is one point were the female protagonist says "how now brown cow" .  I had thought this was a trigger word to send me into a different personality.  As recently as December I thought that there was a double of me created by time reality manipulation.  There might have been more things in that movie that I mirrored in my odd world but each detail escapes me.

We humans are social creatures.  If we believe something and are mirrored back to that what we believe is true then the confirmation gives us a feeling of validity.  If we don't receive confirmation we have two choices if we want to remain in the human group or society.  Stop embracing what we perceived as real or believe it and keep our mouths shut.

For me, I have chosen to believe that the spiritual gifts I received are real.  I have mentioned before, that there is something about the modern human condition with all its technology and the human mystic in relation.  I consider myself a mystic and by taking on the role of the victim of technology in my delusion, I surrender my psyche and brain to the monster that we are creating with our human ambition.

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